About 4or 5 years before I left I was contradicting the WT Society's statements while answering at the meeting and giving talks as an elder, I got so uncomfortable that I removed myself from being an elder even though the CO tried to get me to stay on as one. It took a few more years after that of listening to their bull shit that I stopped going to meetings and with in a year I was no longer a believer(2001 February).
That was a real struggle for me to break free of this utter infantile bull shit.